so far this year has started off in every way better than the last 19.
i met mel.
she is my complete other half.
she is my muse.
i love art school.
i love having exhibitions.
i need more money.
i need a new job.
check my myspace out for more updated versions of my life.
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yes

everythings just a bit shit.
thankyou

i only said a bit.

take me away into the endless where i dont have to think.

who knows whats actually going on in my head.

i dont think ive had control over anything ive thought about for a while now.

and then when i do, something else presents its ugly head and says nuh uh.



i feel so vulnerable. i never thought women could this to me, leave me feeling this way.

but im so addicted to them, that must be my problem.

im so lost in it all.


(fuck im so emo)(bah whatever, im just being me)

i need to stop myself fighting against myself.

today i saw a homeless guy walk down hindley street with a boombox on his shoulders shouting and pointing at people....

Mood: oh well
Listening to: one of them
Reading: something
Watching: spun

art
music
katy
friends who have been there for me lately, yes even some of you off here
Kif
pizza
colours that blend well together
japanese mayonaise
jjj
carnivale
tartare sauce on anything
ART again
dylan and sarah
strange movies
stencils
u2
india
jager bombs
gaybars
rain
fields of longish grass
colour
my pillows
mist
birds flying
photoshop
big brown eyes
being random
saying Ohwell
sleeping with someone in my arms
monkey and teddy
german opera
my uni course - visual arts
dancing
the sound lab on triple jjj
people and friends that are similar to me in my weird ways
waking up in the middle of the early morning hours and then going back to sleep really comfortably
saying eeyschh
spending time in between lectures and tutes and practicals just walking down hindley street and watching people, and their characters

(in no particular order)

Listening to: modest mouse - dramamine
Reading: angels & demons (finally)

i need help
someone to talk to, this is not a advertisement, im just getting out my frustrations through this. it helps slightly

grrrah